When I signed up to be a volunteer at She Is Free last year, I had no idea what it was about. Confession time: I had sat in church and watched all the videos and see all the hype, but I still had no idea what I was getting myself into! I had been going to Liberty Church Brooklyn for about 6 months and I just thought it would be a really great way to get plugged in. Plus, everyone seemed so buzzed about it. It was almost immediately overwhelming for me when we opened the doors and hundreds of women came rushing in to take their seats. They were eager. Hungry. Almost desperate to hear what was about to be said. After the first 30 minutes of worship like I've never experienced before, I found what they were looking for. Turns out I was looking for something too. And I thought if I came here not even realizing what I was getting myself into, but obviously looking for something, some greater connection to God, something bigger than myself, then they must all be too.
For most of my life, I've compared myself to other women. The way they dress, their clothes, their skinny jeans that are actually skinny on them. We live in a society that is constantly telling us what we should dress like or what we should look/act like or how much we should weigh. But at that moment, when I realized they all seemed to be just as hungry for the word of God as I was, those barriers no longer existed. And let me tell you when there's nothing to separate us because the Holy Spirit has broken down those walls, women are a force to be reckoned with.
You see I realized that when I start comparing myself to others and putting God's love infinite spaces of who He loves more based on looks, actions, or personalities, then I become a messenger of the enemy instead of a servant of the King of kings. It was the first time I was standing in the presence of the God and allowing the vastness of His wonder to overwhelm me.
I think there were about 800 women that came to last year's conference. That's 800 barriers destroyed. That's 800 souls surrounded by the Holy Spirit. That's 800 daughters of the One true King, influenced by His mighty power. Even if there weren't 800 Christian women there, Jesus tells us in Matthew 18:20 that "where two or three gather in my name, I am with them." Can you imagine the feeling in a room of 800? It was palpable.
I think that is why I am so excited to tell people about it now. I've told all my family and all of my friends and coworkers. I pray that women from all over the world continue to have an opportunity to experience this for themselves. I joined the host committee this year because I am so passionate about what the Holy Spirit can do for a woman especially when she allows those barriers to be brought down by love. True love. Love of herself, the way God loves her. There is so much freedom in knowing that His love is enough for all of us. That it's never ending and He sees the potential in all of us because He has made each of us uniquely and for a purpose. Another verse in 1 Corinthians 3:7 says "So neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but only God, who makes things grow."
I'm so glad I said yes to going last year. It's changed me in a way I didn't know I needed to grow. But God knew. She Is Free is like the oasis you didn't know you needed for the thirst you never realized you had. And Jesus Christ is the living water.